C is for Crazy

C is for CRAZY
(My Name is Not Chloe)

A
M

I

C
R
A
Z
Y

She leaves off the question mark
The question mark is implied. O is for Obvious.
The sentence structure is such that a question mark would be
simply redundant – of course this is a question –

And leaving off the question mark
Leaves room for a possible conjunction –
An addition to the story that could save her here:

 

Am I crazy or . . . (or do you adore me as much as I adore you?)

“OR”

Am I crazy because . . .  (because I’m starting to worry about this)

“BECAUSE”

Because I’m sitting here, with stokes from inside my typewriter
Holding them over a match, branding ink into my skin
Typing on my flesh the letters:

A
M

 

I

 

C
R
A
Z
Y

 

“Am I crazy?” she asks . . .  (she asks, as if expecting an answer)

 

SHE ASKS

 

“Am I crazy,” she asks and he . . .   (she asks and he takes her in his arms…)

 

AND HE                                 

 

As in:  SHE ASKS AND HE

 

AND HE responds, at exactly the right moment.  E is for Exactly.

 

SHE ASK AND HE

 

AND HE says, “Crazy? Use precise language, Justine. What about replacing the word ‘crazy’ with the words ‘in love’?”

 

Yes.

 

…AND HE surrounds her with love.

…AND HE swirls her in his arms.

…AND HE is perfect, almost stereotypically, archetypically perfect, as in C is for Classic or C is for Cinematic or is C for Crazy (?) or is C for Cliché (…) or is C for Chloe (!)

 

Oh.

 

CHLOE . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Oh, Chloe! . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Chloe claims the letter C.

 

And so: Justine asks herself again:

 

A

M

 

I

 

C

R

A

Z

Y

 

(?)

 

And:

 

(?)

 

Maybe a question mark IS important here?

 

(?)

 

Maybe precise punctuation is as crucial (C is for Crucial) to constructing (C is for Constructing) meaning (M is for Married as in “He is Married” as in “To Someone Else” as in “He is Married to Chloe” AND, she thinks, “C is for Chloe” AND, she thinks, “My name is NOT Chloe”) as grammar and word choice.

 

C is for Chloe.

As in: His Choice.

As in: He Chooses Chloe.

As in: C is for Committed.

Committed to Chloe.

C is for Chloe.

Which implies that C is also for

 

– Justine watches a tear fall and land precisely in the center of the word –

 

“CRAZY”

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